So apparently, when you said you wanted to be friends forever, you didn't mean it. Apparently, you just wanted me to go away and never talk to you again. I just wish you would say what you actually want. Because I hate wasting time trying to figure what a person wants. You are literally one of the most confusing people I have ever met in the history of the world. One day you'll be the nicest person in the world and the next day you'll be avoiding me. I just don't understand any of this. Was it something I did, or something I said? Everything I've told you so far has been the truth, so why aren't you being truthful with me. Okay, so maybe I liked you a little, but thats no reason for the way you've all of a sudden started to treat me now. I thought we were over this. Past the whole you don't like me drama and how I don't give a shit and I still want to be your friend. Maybe you took me the wrong way or something, but I don't give up on figuring people out that easily. Or give up on people in general. It's not just because I had a minor crush on you, its because I've done some things in the past that made me feel the need to push away from the other person in these situations and I've regretted that ever since. So, here I am, giving you exactly what you want, a friendship, and you are pushing me away likes theres no tomorrow. You are a really cool guy and your friends are pretty cool too, they are kind of like my friends from back home and I miss them dearly, so you and your friends are my temporary replacements. Yes, I messed up a little, but you did too, you are the one who lead me to believe that I was going to become your girlfriend. You are the one who started sending me cute text messages and said that you didn't want to screw this up. So, under those conditions, I haven't screwed this up yet, I've just been playing follow the leader. I just wish that we could go back to the way we were on that first night. Where we talked for hours and were both completely honest with each other. It was so much less complicated then. I wish I could talk to you truthfully without being afraid of scaring you away. Because, if I could, this letter would be what I would say.